I just don't know

I am at this place again.

I am sucka for a smile...

He smiled, I melted

There's something about him

I was about to write if we could at least be friends I would be happy

Why is it that I can't have my yum-yum cake??

I don't know

But I think I am going to relax about him, just let things happen naturally

But if I don't see him at all and all we have is texting

aren't the odds against me??

I don't know, I just don't know

I'm rock stuck in a hard place

I want the lazy days lying in bed next to him

I want it all

Or so I think

 I don't know, I just don't know

Wise Words

In the middle of you setback plan for your comeback- Joel Osteen 

=)

Feeling Good, Feeling Great

..it's been awhile since I've written anything!! Let's see,

• Classes are going well!! That makes me so happy :)
• I wish there was more time so I could actually cross things off my to do list
• I don't really have time for anything extra which can be a good thing sometimes
• Work is work. I like it when i first get there and the moment i leave
• I love, love the apt! i love having my own space not worrying about someone else's stuff and if I'm encroaching on their area
• Junior year has begun...I'M READY!

Off to a meeting! hopefully there's snacks!! hahahah

A Little Push!

Compliments of Karrine Steffans
"Everyday when you wake up, only do things that you know will bring you closer to your dreams....Whatever it takes, do it and do nothing else, because every time you wake up and waste the day, you're wasting your life"

I'm Back!

Finally back @ school!!
I know this quarter I'm going to have to work my butt off!
It feels good to be back :)

An Uncanny Truth

September 14th, 2008
An Uncanny Truth
Laughter fills my thoughts as I remember the way we were
We didn’t need words to express how we felt we just knew
We had developed this uncanny ability to read each other’s thoughts, finish each other’s sentences
We were the same person
Or so we thought
As things fell apart
Our uncanny ability began to fade
I no longer had an all access pass to your thoughts
Never had I felt so disconnected from you
We watched as our friendship crumbled to pieces
What scared me was that we didn’t do anything about it
Because we didn’t know what we would be diving into
Fear is what brought us together
And it was that same fear that disengaged us
It was weird but I learned to cope.
Learned to direct my discontent towards everyone but you
The one person I needed to talk to was you but I couldn’t bring myself to it
Neither could you
It took long pauses, fake smiles, and a text message
To bring us back together
Back to the reality that we indeed were not the same person
We were just two people who had this uncanny ability
Try as I might to be angry with you I couldn’t
Trust me I tried
I couldn’t muster that emotion
Instead I realized the only thing that I owed you was my honesty
Sincerity
The truth
No longer could I hide from it
No longer could I deny you that
With a racing heart I temporarily gave you your all access pass back
Letting you see what really happened
During our months apart
Finally allowing you to hear my discontent
A conversation that was long over due
The next day came as you made an attempt, an effort to get us back on track
But I knew that your effort was a futile one
It was too soon for us to jump back into our carefully crafted friendship
Wounds that had been haphazardly patched over were now petal open, revealing a bruised heart
We both fully realized that our all access friendship would never be the same again
Days have come and gone
Months have passed; I am now finally at peace with all of it
I can breathe a sigh of relief knowing that the anger I once had for you know has dissolved to content
We shared wonderful moments with the bad ones sprinkled in between
Not regretting any moment of it, I would do it all again
Reminding myself
That there is a reason for all things

Electricity

Two days without electricity=NO FUN!
I'm losing my mind!! I'm hoping and praying that this will not be going on for too long!
If it does continue I'll just have to endure it!
*Lord have mercy on all of us*